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read my profile sign my guestbook Name: Jessica Country: United States State: Illinois Metro: Chicago Birthday: 2/2/1985 Gender: Female Message: message me Member Since: 6/13/2005

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Monday, October 09, 2006

Jeez, I can't believe it's been over a month since I updated this.
Sorry, girls. I suck.
I need to get back in the routine of checking out everyone's ana sites before I go to eat something...maybe that'll get me to stop. Ugh.
My mom and fiance took me out yesterday to go coat shopping...God was it depressing. I mean, when you think of a coat, you think...size doesn't matter too much, because it's a COAT for crying out loud. It's supposed to be big.
It still really blows.
I'm trying something this week...I don't know, maybe to only eat like once a day? My schedule is going to be really out of whack, because of all the stuff I have due this week, but I'll try.
Oh...yeah, I'm 15 days late with my period. I'm not blaming it on ana, because up until today, I was eating normally. I've taken two pregnancy tests and they've come back negative. Wtf is up?

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Friday, September 08, 2006

I'm horrible at updating this! I'm sorry!

My intake for today so far:
B: 170 cal. of a Caribou Coffee medium cappuccino
Exercise: -222 cal. on bike, and random machines at the gym (arms/back/legs/abs)
L: 130 cal. of Cheddar Chex Mix

It's pizza night tonight...unfortunately...but I'm trying to get them to order salad, so I'll try to stick to JUST that. I really hope I can do it.

I'm frustrated that I haven't lost any weight while at school...I've been working out TONS more than I have in like, forever...ugh. It's like, I have to completely not eat ANYTHING in order to lose weight. And it's so hard.

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Monday, July 24, 2006

Sorry it's been so long since I updated.
I'm doing something as far as goals go this week...
No chocolate! He he. I figured it'll help me with my weight at least a bit, because I'm addicted to the stuff. So far I'm at...like, 33 hours and counting without the stuff. Woot! Hopefully all my zits go away, too...sigh...stupid sugar.

How has everyone been? Like I said, I'm sorry that it's been a while. I've been having problems with my dad, so I'm practically living at my boyfriend's house, working for his mom...go money!

But yeah, the weight still sucks. I realized just how soon I go back to school, so I'm trying to get my butt in gear. Ya know? I'm making it another goal to try to get some sort of exercise in every day, and to hopefully just eat once (if that) every day.
Give me comments! I need 'em!
Stay strong girls!

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Friday, June 30, 2006

Pray for me tonight, girls.
I've been mostly good for the past 3 days, I've probably lost like 2 lbs. I'm so stressed out that I've been getting really bad stomach cramps, which makes me totally not want to eat. Which rocks.
Today I've had a few bites of salsa and tortilla chips (not the majorly unhealthy ones, though)...then kinda fucked up and had 150 cal. of an ice cream thing. But that's been it. I just don't want to end up eating tons of pizza and crap tonight, since it's movie night.
I worked out yesterday...not as much as I would have liked to, but I was still proud of myself. I'm getting gradually more and more sore as the day progresses, ugh.
So CW probably 172-173. Which blows, I know, I'm a huge disgusting cow...need to lose 75 lbs. in a year, think I can do it?

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Monday, June 26, 2006

Aargh

Sorry I haven't been writing in this, everyone. I'm not even sure who all reads this, if anyone. I've just been really busy...today I've been so good so far.

B: 3/4 serving oatmeal w/ <1tsp. honey, a few raisins, and 1 tbsp. brown sugar

L: 1 medium-sized red apple, green tea

EDIT:

S: I totally binged, UGH. 270 cal from Hershey's, and then...I don't know, maybe 250 from half a bagel with a little cheese on top of it. UGH I'm such a failure.

D: TBA, but I'm pretty sure I'm splitting a Panera Bread cup of soup / sandwich with my fiance. So half the calories!

Survey

Current Weight:No idea, but probablt 175, ugh
Grade: Will be a senior in college
Shirt Size-L or XL
Jean size- You don't wanna know...between 14 and 16 I think
Hair Color/Style: Brown, long
Eye Color: Hazel
Fashion style: Anything that fits?

Highest Weight Selection
(all this stuff at your highest weight)
Highest weight: 180 probably
When: Last month

Largest Pant size: 16
Largest Shirt size: large-xlarge

Lowest Weight Selection
Lowest weight: 130.0
When: 2 years ago
Smallest Pant size: 8
Smallest Shirt size: Medium
How did you get here: Majorly restricting, exercising

How long did it take you: 5-ish months
Did friends Notice: I think

Current Weight Selection
(what you are/want currently)
Ultimate Goal Weight: 100.0
Pant size: 4-6
Shirt size: small
Celebrity Idol: Mary Kate, Angelina Jolie, LINDSAY LOHAN
Why: So gorgeous, everyone loves them
BMI: 19ish
How much do you usually eat a day: Way too much
Favorite Candy Bar: Anything chocolate
Favorite fruits: Apples, grapes, maybe bananas
Favorite Vegetable: Lettuce, onion, green pepper, tomato
Favorite Drink: Water, tea, coffee, Crystal Lite

Leave comments please, give me thinspo!

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